I am scared...

I am really very scared..
As i am the overall ic for the NDP in school .
I get to do many many Jobs that will made me crazy like mad!
I am so stress.
For unit camp , i am doing parade also..
Help me. I don't know how to cope with my studies already.
My life is too exhausted.
I am scared that i will ruin the whole parade.
And red cross reputation will drop.
I am just a normal sec 2 level head.
How can i handle ?
What if i can't remember the commands?
I have the fear of standing infront of many people.
 But I hide it. I am afraid i will scream!
How?! What can i do?
Maybe , i shouldn't go to ULP in the first place.
I feel like i am pushing the blame to them.
Sorry guys , what if i can't do it? What if you all can't co-operate with me?
I am not a good talker. I speak broken english.
My friends do offer help .
And i feel guilty. I sounds like a attention seeker.
I keep telling myself it is for the cadets.
Can i be cadet again?
I am really very tired ley..
I don't want to collapse so easily.
Haix..wish me luck?
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